Sometimes I get confused between what is a memory of life or a memory of dream. I will think of something I have seen before, and if it lacks corroborating evidence, I wonder if I have really seen it or if I dreamed it some night back. Sometimes, I think I have seen something, like some words repeated in a book I am reading when I have skimmed ahead, then, reading on and not seeing those words, I will think I have dreamed it. Then there's the last layer, when, further on in the book, the words appear and repeat, that it was real after all — I was just not patient enough. I have to watch myself, and sometimes I get a little compulsive about checking on matters, not trusting my memory.
The dodges and parries of reality. Perhaps I'll never get used to it all; perhaps none of us do. We all have imperfect pictures in our head of what the world really is, and yet we seem to manage, more or less. When you think that you have the absolute market on What Things Are, therein is the madness. When you think that nothing is true, the madness is there, too. The sanity is when you realize everyone's model of what is out there is built on assumptions, and everyone has colored their picture of the world to the tint of their soul. Sometimes you are right, sometimes you are wrong. We all get by on the little bit of truth that has weathered the days, and a little bit of faith that things are as they seem.
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10:27pm thursday, 7th february
i have that dream/reality problem, too.
have you ever seen the play 'zastrozzi'? it's an interesting commentary on that sanity thing you're talking about.
Stand
11:06pm thursday, 7th february
No, I have never heard of it. Where might I find more information?
Tracy
1:39pm monday, 18th february
Stand, that dream reality thing happens to me also.....some people say i am strange, others crazy....a good friend of mine says i am different.....he says i am special because i am different...i have a doubt if i am schizophrenic or not...can you help me?
Stand
9:21pm monday, 18th february
Tracy, email me with your concerns. Maybe I can help.
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