Best of This Journal
These are nine "best of" sets for this site, links within
this journal of what I consider the highlights of the things I've
posted. The date range links are links to the journal entries where
I first featured these "best of" entries, and you may leave
comments there, if you like.
August - October 2001
The following are some of my favorite entries from
the first three months of this site. This will be good for those who have
been with me from the beginning as a recap on where we've traveled from,
and to new visitors this will offer some familiarity with what I'm about.
10/7/88 - The time that Infinity saved
Black Iron Prison - When I found myself
not on earth, but before my madness.
BIP 2 - How I was released from the Black
Gnosticism - My own Gnostic myth, written
during my madness.
Rosanna Arquette? - A dip into my
last, recent madness.
Crossroads? - Words that Jesus in
my head gave me, during my last madness.
A thought - A paragraph about birds.
Trust - About an experience I had
in Korea with a bird in the forest.
Another clip - A drawing from within
my older madness.
Recent - A drawing from my more recent
I'm okay - My breakthrough from my last
November 2001 - January
These are, perhaps, the best of the entries from November
2001 through January 2002. My favorites, in any case. Putting these together
in this fashion does quite bring back some memories.
A heart - The meaning of a candle.
A poem - "Out of Madness", a poem about
emerging out of psychosis.
Rapture - Regarding the phrase "God
Hope - The unasked question.
Yearsbook - An idea I had about my
30 Seconds - Inhibitors, and lacks
Madness? - What madness is, and sanity,
I Will - The things I need keep, if
I am to be me.
Doors - Not the band, but about running
into them, going through them.
Once - Another poem, a sort of summary.
Inspired - Regarding VvG (Vincent van
Gogh), and his Starry Night.
February - April 2002
These are the best of my journal from February through
Me - A little explanation of my most
recent psychotic episode.
Eyewing - An interesting image I drew,
an element of a dream.
Nightmares - A poem about, yes, nightmares.
Breath - "In fire visions yearn to breathe...".
Untitled - A sijo about looking at the
world and this life.
Poem Me - A charming little ditty; a
Words - A short discourse on the value
Snowflakes - On how we are like snowflakes,
and how we are not.
Love Is - What is love?
Nothing - Can we comprehend that word,
The Fisherman - A parable, of sorts.
May - July 2002
The cream of the entries (as far as I see it) from
May through July of the year of our Lord 2002.
Time/Life - The unceasing of time, a life
to be caught.
Ethereal - These words we write, what are
Recollection - Remembering how lost I was,
and being found.
In the Beginning - What there was before
there was anything.
Fadeout - A sijo about being ephemeral,
"Beginning as dust...".
Capable Of - On our true selves, and what
we are capable of.
Soliloquy to a Mirror - A message to myself,
looking myself in the eye.
What I Remember - A paragraph+ on recollections
of my madness.
Tell - A vision? A little mad, perhaps?
Just a poem?
What I Am - A short little piece about
the nature of me.
Song the Fifth - Entitled, "Modern Day
Love", written during my madness.
August - October 2002
These will be what I call my favorite entries in this journal from August through
October of the palindromic year, 2002.
Love Note - A love note to my true love,
whom I've never met.
Why Anything? - Why is there something
instead of nothing?
Words from Where? - Some more
words from the visions in my head.
Diagram - What happens to us in Heaven
A Little Faith - A little idea of
faith, in my imagining.
Goodbyes - Regarding our goodbyes,
or when we never get them.
O Night - A farewell to the darkness.
Imaginary - My imaginary family, and
the imaginary world.
I Recall - A couple things I recall,
from back when....
In the Dreaming - Things I discovered
in the dreaming.
November 2002 - January
The following are what I believe to be the best of
my efforts from November of 2002 through January of 2003:
Night and Day - A poem of the two
and their brief meeting.
Recollection 5 - One of the more curious
effects of my past madness.
Dreamers... - Dream with me.
Where You Go - That place where you
may yet find yourself.
Remember Me - Some things to carry
with you that I may give.
Imagining - A sijo about two blinks
and their outcomes.
Sweet Nothings - Some little things
scattered through my mind.
A Prayer (Thanks) - Thanks to the One
Myths - Of a flower in the darkness.
Essence - Sometimes it is a good time
to be alive.
Between the Lines - A poem that rhymes
the word it would disguise.
February - April 2003
These ditties are what I deem the cream of my crop from February through
April of our cool little year 2003. From now on, I will do this at every
6 month interval instead of the 3 I have been doing:
I Dream... - Some of my dreaming,
whatever it may mean.
Circle - A sijo about the cycle of
day and night.
It Is Easy - Things that are easy
to slip to, if we stop not to think.
Wonder - I wonder: what is this thing,
life, that we travel through?
Of Rain - Of looking through the window,
and being invited in.
This Is Love - Yes, the mystery: yet
this we know.
To Do - These things I need to do as
I walk on.
Stranger, Wondering - Otherwhiles like
a child, this stranger.
Imaginary Dreams - Three dreams I imagined
In One Moment - What can happen in just
River - A poem of madness pumping through
May - October 2003
As promised, as the six months have passed since I
last collected these, it is time now to go back and look at what I consider
the most potent of my writings, and perhaps, you might think so, too.
Colors - A sijo about the blue and the
black, and other colors.
Placeholders - These arbitrary things that
become our cornerstones.
Angels' Song - "Fear not: what you have
waited for will come to pass...."
Draw - A little ditty about a man who
drew on himself every day.
Me, Myself, I - About looking in the mirror
and not recognizing him I see.
Gray Wings - Gliding past the hills of
my wondering, and what I observe.
Meandering - Touching beauty and death,
meandering my way on.
Ecstatic Visions - About waking up from
the ecstatic vision.
Before, During, After - Three fates,
or only one shedding her skin?
Memory Zero - A sijo about smoke, and
time, and the still waters.
No Memory - Poem, here, about the me
whom you met that is not me.
November 2003 - April
It has been another six months, so these that
follow are the latest and greatest from this time period past.
Sunset - "...slow sunset descend
in the music of the summer winds."
A Couple Clues - These I have
learned from experience; they might help.
Elsewhere - Questioning where
we go in our madness.
My True Love - What I imagine
of my love, true.
Illusion - On how I am less than
a wind, fainter than a ghost.
Breathless Run - Running across
the horizon, across the snow.
Simulacrum - How I am living
someone else's life.
Phantasms - Perhaps why my visions
never explain themselves.
Gears - A sijo about the disintegration
of the sky.
Windows - Having nothing to do
with Microsoft or Bill Gates.
In the Quiet - Of the whispers,
of the dark, of imagination and Death.