Do you remember when, as a child, you tasted the best thing you had ever tasted in the entire world? For you it will probably not be the same as me, but you know what I mean. It is amazing the entirety of flavor that just takes over your mouth, and the taste is all that is, just for a few moments — you are one with the savor. You swallow it down, and you are convinced that that is the one, only thing that you want to eat for the rest of your life. You can't believe that you could ever get tired of the taste. But if you're lucky, you've never tasted that flavor since that magical time.
It's because you eat it again, and maybe it's almost as good, some 99% as good. But you can't stop there, because it's too delicious. You have to have some more. So you eat more, and more again, and after some number of times eating this wondrous stuff, you get used to it. And then you grow up, you're suddenly not a kid anymore. You've had this stuff a hundred times. It's still good, but you get the feeling that you don't want that to be your only taste for eternity. And you discover other flavors down the road from there, but that sensation — that childlike sensation — is gone.
I know that even if I ate the best thing I have ever tasted, nowadays, it wouldn't be the same as if I were that child of ago. I think I've gotten used to tasting, in general. You grow up. You put away all that stuff — the stuff that, as a child, you thought would last forever.
maggie
7:17am friday, 19th july
also the begging that u do for that wonderous taste, when u grow up u get a job and u can buy it urself, u dont have to beg ur mum for it anymore and the satisfaction after begging the hell outta ya mum for something that'll taste so good for such a short time is gone and coz u have ur own money now u can buy it urself all the time, which is boring, my mum never buys anything for me anymore. now i have to buy stuff for her.
maggie