These fragments of experience we gather them a life —
the interlocking pieces, a puzzle that will never be solved.
The teeth of destiny bite out raw chunks, chew up strange stories.
Anne
10:20pm friday, 1st november
I have to tell you Stand, I've read your story and I have so many questions. I stumbled upon it while doing some research for a psychology paper on schizophrenia. My nephew was diagnosed recently. He engaged in alot of drug use. He's 22 now. The earilest I can remember was when he was 9 years old. Smoking pot and huffing gas. I feel so sorry for him. I haven't seen him since his diagnosis. I had an eposide in october of 1997. I smoked alot of pot but never anything else to my knowledge. My exboyfiend at the time kept telling me that one day someone was going to put it in my drink. He was very abusive and said the most hateful things sometimes that I didn't put much thought in to what he was saying until that night I couldn't sleep. I was very upset, about the breakup, I had just lost my job. I felt so confused. Days went by with out food or sleep. I still don't know for sure if he put a drug in my drink that night. The drug test came up empty. It had been several days before I was baker acted. I believed that the world was going to end on a thursday. I thought I was Eve and my new boyfriend was Adam. I don't recall having hallucinations but I was delusional. I heard angels talking to me, I heard demons talking to me. I thought my mother was satan. So I can totally relate to everything you experienced. I was put in the psychiatric ward at our local hospital for almost a week. They put me on medication which, I felt made things worse. I did the whole walking around naked thing too. My episode lasted for several days. I didn't eat or sleep. It was a very unbelievable experience. I weened myself off of the medication against my doctors recommendation but he told me to do it if i felt it was necessary. I wasn't diagnosed with schizophrenia but they called it acute psychosis. I haven't had anything like that happen since. And I really found your life story to be fascinating in a weird way. I wish you lots of luck. I think your site is great.
Anne
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