In the dream of the wars to be fought,
there are heroes that wait to be bought,
there are cowards that think to escape,
and the no-ones that stand against fate.
(When the night buries day in its tomb,
and the hour it strikes like a doom,
can the courage that shined in the light
then outfire the darkness's bite?)
O that hopelessness pass with the morn,
that the valiant steer true through the storm,
that a candle to burn through the night
be a voice that gives hearts second sight:
When the warrior winds blow again,
we must wield us a mightier pen:
of the sword we may die, but alive,
we can give more to life than survive.
me?!
7:31am tuesday, 11th february
Like this,dont quite know if i agree with everything though. Keep sharp..
anon.x
9:31am tuesday, 11th february
to: me?!
just posted this message on yesterdays thing, but just thought id recomend some music to you!
try Tracy Chapman, im not sure which album is the best cos my sister just copied a collection4me. There not that deep, but they ALWAYS calm me down and help put a smile back on my face when things get bad. if you get the chance, do listen!
take care
me?!
9:45am tuesday, 11th february
For anon.x :
Tracy Chapman is not unknow to me, but it gives me shivers,like a icy cold stream running up my spine. Tracys voice is so powerful,like Anastacias voice. But Tracys lyrics is somewhat deep,in my opinion. And when my thoughts are raising i need something with a different kind of energy,difficult to explain,not all that good with words :) kinda a thiughtless time where you just let the music pulsate your wanes and give yourself to the music,floating..Kinda like when i train. Do you know the feeling im trying to describe??hard to explain. But i thank you deeply. Once upon a time she was one of my favorite artists actually.Right now im listening to Linking Park,theres a special kinda energy i get when listening to them. Anyways,your reply is much appriciated. Take care to you to!
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11:53am tuesday, 11th february
Good music for thoughtless time is the Lemon Jelly album KY.
me?!
12:38pm tuesday, 11th february
Lemon Jelly you say,never her of them. ill check em out..
anon.x
1:40pm tuesday, 11th february
for me?!
i know the feeling your trying to describe, i get that with Alicia Keys, love her music, mainly her voice.
i love linkin park as well actually, songs you can really float away with. will listen to the ones you especially recomended tonight, so thank you!
me?!
4:50pm tuesday, 11th february
Cool anon.x ! You got great tast when it comes to music... Artists like Alicia Keys, Pink, Avril Lavigne, Nightwish,Linkin Park, Millencollin,2pac, NOFX and Anastacia rocks.
me?!
6:11pm tuesday, 11th february
Do all you people who express yourselves through music or poetry realises how much power you in fact have? Not only regarding your ability to influence people, but also the power you hold to brodcast messages throughout the world... It is kinda a little responsibility attatched to the gift,is it not? If it isnt i think it should be...
me?!
6:51pm tuesday, 11th february
Understand ghosts
Soliloquy to a Mirror
Busy
Night
In Three Parts
We of Dream
I wait
Fantasy
Now
Dreams, Revisited
Burn
Ancient
Regret?
Dream self
and it is easy is my all time favorites amongst that what you have written Stand. Just to let you know..
anon.x
10:30pm tuesday, 11th february
for me?!
love pink and avril lavigne too!! now this is where we probably differ, i love Billy Joel and Cat Stephens?!! their my fun types of music, real happy tunes!
i also agree with what you say about music and poetry being so influential and powerful. music is one of the most important things in my life, it's one of the very few escape routes we have.
me?!
6:56am wednesday, 12th february
to anon.x :
Used to listen to billy joel,a long time ago,back in the days :)
Cat stephens i am not so shure bout,never really listened to him. My statement stands,u got great taste when it comes to music.. And as for music beeing important i totally agree with you, am actually gonna buy absolute relaxed and take up my meditation,maybe. Theres just music for each and every situation and mood,sometimes scary how they can pinpoint your feelings with such presition,almost as if speaking to you..
x
8:38am wednesday, 12th february
Take up drumming, its the best meditation there is.
anon.x
9:07am wednesday, 12th february
its true how music seems to pin point your feelings at the precise moment your listening to it, but maybe it's only because you are looking for it. I think that you would not be able to realise that the music is relevant to you unless you were specifically looking for it. im not very good at explaining things. But say, one day a particular song/lyrics would seem to be speaking specifically to you when your feeling down, then the next day the same song/lyrics seem to be speaking to you when your feeling happy. You read what you like into the lyrics. you choose to ignore certain parts and only hear the bits that apply specifically to you.
i dont think this is a bad thing, this is what makes music so special, you make it personal to you, so even if a million people are listening to the same song, you will always hear it different.
just my opinion!!
for meditation try tubular bells or pan pipes, they're soooo relaxing!!
me?!
10:55am wednesday, 12th february
As for the meditation i do it the traditional way(sitting in lotus,floating on a puffy white cloud..just quit one day and am considering taking it up again now..). And all that about reading what you like into music is correct.When feeling angry i put on fight music,when happy various artists and when feeling blue i listen to linkin park,millencollin,nofx++
Guess its the way its suposed to be..
for x : the lemon jelly album ky is ,to all the stores ive been to(and that is quite a few)unknown. but ill keep on trying :)
Gotta go,ill be back
And i hope there will come some words out of your brain today,anciously antisipating it, Stand.. :)
me?!
1:19pm wednesday, 12th february
For Stand:
During the cours of your illness, could you be trusted? (can anyone while suffering from schizophrenia?) I know one stops to care about ones souroundings, but does that go for trust as well? I know my question might seem unclear, but i know not how it elseways can be asked..
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2:41pm wednesday, 12th february
one fine day in the middle of the night
two dead men got up to fight
back to back they faced eachother
drew their swords and shot eachother
a paralysed man wallking by
poked a blind man in the eye.......?
anyone know the rest!?
Stand
5:31pm wednesday, 12th february
me?!: No, I certainly could not be trusted. My sense of reality was completely warped. I would take things as having some cosmic meaning that meant nothing at all (a look in the eye could spell an apocalypse). I would "lose" things, once throwing out my wallet and watch for some higher purpose that made no sense. The only upside was that I was never harmful to anyone else but myself.
me?!
8:12pm wednesday, 12th february
For Stand: So one can not take the word of someone suffering from schizophrenia as the truth.. You wouldnt know what goes on in the head of those who are out to harm others? And is there no way to know weather they are dangerous or not? Do one just have to wait and see...?? And how can one that is hostal towards others receive help? Is it best to just stay clear of the person, and if one desperately want to help, how does one aproach it...????
A lot of questions here for you, any answer is much appriciated.
(a friend of mine has snaped, knew he would,i am not saying he is schizo,but it is a interesting theme anyways. And i have another psykotic friend,but he does NOT want help,all has failed and people are starting to give up.ill still fight,after having made a battle plan..)
Stand
8:20pm wednesday, 12th february
me?!: I think it is a similar to mine, those who want to hurt others: it is an alteration of reality that does it to them, either they don't know what they're doing at all, or they don't know what they're doing is wrong. (That is legal insanity, by the way, in the USA.) It is best to stay away from people who have harmed others in the past, because even though they might not really be bad people, they are not responsible for what they do, and even if you were close to them, they might hurt you without really meaning to. If you want to help them, get them professional help: get them to go to therapy, and get them on medication. That last thing especially was the only way I finally got better, myself.
me?!
9:25pm wednesday, 12th february
I hear you Stand..But it is really hard to turn your back to someone close to you.. And how can one who am,in most cases,against medication stand on the barrieres suporting the use.For some there is no difference in taking a pill wich makes it all go away as to go on regular medication.When old ill probarbly never rot in my tomb,all the gooddamn shitty stuff ive got inside(and im not talking bout the drugs.ive got this condition or actually many conditions..) Ive taken a stand,no more.Dont want liver problems,heart disorders,muscles that are decaying an all that shit. And last i checked med for psycosis isnt to healty. Ther me and my friend agree.And as for therapy,itll never work,hell never agree to it(and belive you me,ive tried,God how i have tried). And in my F... country noone can be admitted to an institution against their will,and even if you do,you can walk right on out of there in a jiffy. I cant stay away,ive never been hurt bad,and im a strong girl,no chicken :) Promised to never give up on him,cant,rather go down with him.. But he really deserves to be happy again..He is truly kind deep down,really he is,maybe the kindest ever to have walked the face of the earth. how can i denie the only thing that brings joy in his life,the drugs? to look into those eyes,you see his hurt and torment..he is forgotten by the world,not wanted nor needed. No,to leave him is out of the question,NEVER!nothing i can do then...??
me?!
10:17pm wednesday, 12th february
As the time difference is about two hours,and its midnight, ill have to be get going,darkness has come.. If you stand would wish to give me directions on what i can do(that goes for eveybody who is equiped to answer..) id be very glad.i do consern a great deal on my friends conditions and feel so helpless. All responds are warmly welcomed. Sleep t. folks and do take care!
Stand
10:48pm wednesday, 12th february
me?!: The only way I got sane was to get myself off the drugs. It was a lot of "tough love" that pulled me through, that and Jesus Christ. What triggered my final sanity (which I describe in My Story) was meeting and talking to someone who had a similar problem, and me thinking, "You're nuts," and then realizing that I looked that way to other people. If you can't get him to professional help, I'm not sure what really to do; I couldn't have done it on my own, for sure, and my friends I didn't listen to much.
I don't know, if you must try something, why not videotape him when he's "out of touch" and show it to him? Tell him, this is how you look to other people? You see, that was the biggest problem: I didn't know I was psychotic. If you get him to understand that something is wrong with him, you've got a lot of the battle won. Email me and we can discuss this further.
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