I am tired today — I had a severe case of insomnia last night, resulting in a total lack of sleep. Been going on zero z's all day, and I am thinking that I will not write anything fancy today. Just hello, how are you? I am fine, considering I feel like dropping dead from exhaustion (hyperbole, of course, since I feel like I have already dropped dead from exhaustion, and I am doing this in my sleep). I still get flashes where I almost think I'm the Antichrist again, that same old madness, a broken record, faded from wear, repeating endlessly at random intervals (I date myself, don't I? CD's don't tend to repeat themselves when scratched, merely skip further down the song). Yes, my old cartoon people are there, too, including Rosanna Arquette, Jesus Christ, Michael the Archangel, and sometimes Gabriel and other people. But only occasionally — I did manage to get some work done at work today. And I did write this. Or did I? I'll have to check tomorrow. I'll get back to you on that one.
angela
8:43am tuesday, 4th march
I relate to this alot. I've been told to HALT alot. I don't have the people, I just think I'm on one big rush and every time this happens the rush is more intense and lasts much to long. I feel that I really had relapsed. Then I wish I were dead and on and on.
x
9:26am tuesday, 4th march
Keep going Stand, keep living your life as slowly and beautifully as you can. This was just one bad day. There are millions of better dawns.
anon.x
9:48am tuesday, 4th march
hope you sleep well tonight.
if i cant, i always try to stay awake, and i find that it makes me fall asleep!
me?!
10:33am tuesday, 4th march
I also send you my best regards,hoping this night will provide more pleasentness than the previous(both in form of catching up on your sleep and you having a cartoon-free night in case you fail entering the Land of Dreams tonight as well).But i should think dreaming is not that unlike madness,as one after all enters a place where one is free to do almost anything,and boundaries of the imagenation and fantasy is vague,if even present.
Anyway,i do hope you will snap out of this insomnia thing,it is actually the most devestating state,i will claim,one can find oneself in.So if it continues,why don`t you call in sick,and try to get on top again...?!
angela