I will leave it all behind. I say that, and then I realize that there is not much, really, not much I am actually leaving. Much of my things — my important things — I will take with me, and there is the web, which follows me wherever in the world I go. I have right now not that many friends, and my family lives apart from me anyhow. Mostly, I will be leaving this country behind — America: you have done for me some good, some ill, but I think I will not miss you as I would have some years ago. I will leave it all behind; I will leave this place and set up a home in a new place in the world. It was the last time I was there, in Korea, walking around in the streets of Seoul, when some ancient hereditary memory stored in my DNA surfaced (something like that), something that told me without saying why that this was the place where I belonged.
I have given indeterminate notice at the company where I work, where I may stay pretty much as long as I want, if I finish some certain important project before I go. I am trying to make preparations, but it is not a rush, yet — I think I will have as much as three months' grace period where I am currently situated. But this is it: this is the change I have been waiting for, not realizing that what was to happen was something I myself would set in motion. This is huge, a life altering event, and perhaps the first of this magnitude that I myself am responsible for. My life is mine, right now, not blown like a leaf in the wind — but more like a paper airplane I have folded with my two hands and thrown with my own strength... still liable to be tossed by the winds, at least I have (if roughly) picked the direction of the flight. I am leaving it all behind. Wish me luck.
jj
8:23pm saturday, 16th august
hope all goes well with your trip. Hopefully it encompasses to a small degree, what you are looking for.
Take care
anon.x
12:42pm sunday, 17th august
some deserve a break in life, some dont. you do. good luck
me?!
8:57am tuesday, 19th august
Yeah,good luck!
*hope you are going to take your computer with you :) if not,thank you..
x
7:01pm saturday, 23rd august
Haven't been on your site for a while- been away from home and ill but I'm glad you made the break at last. You have made the right choice. It was a shit job anyway wasn't it? I wish you luck, love, health, happiness and joy.
Irene
1:29am saturday, 30th august
Good luck and GOD bless. Thanks for the site it gave some inspiring insight.
jj
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