I have found salvation is a deeper thing. We at times go through times when we conceive that we are traveling through a hell, that perhaps evil has won somehow, tricked us into inhaling its disintegrating vapors — that somehow we have lost the great battle in our souls, and nothing can retrieve us back. What shall we do when we cannot even pray? I think I know. When the whole world seems against me (and in my madness, creation itself seemed wholly designed at times to be my bane), I have sensed that if I merely hang on to the next day, even to the next hour, that the heart holds its victory in a place that evil cannot reach. That victory is such that though we cannot seem to reach it either, I tell you that it is there. You have already won, and nothing can take it from you.
Do not despair when you despair. Perhaps these words seem self-contradictory, but I think you have an idea of what I am trying to say. There is a deeper hope than ordinary hope. This is the hope in your heart of hearts, something that there is no enemy's victory can overcome. And this fundamental hope: it is not something that you hold onto, but something, rather, that holds onto you.
KaTe
6:47pm tuesday, 14th october
only through suffering can enlightenment be found. like the story of the man whose fate was to carry a rock to the top of the mountain and when he finally reaches there, he has the next journey of dragging it back down only so that he can bring it back again over and over again.
KaTe
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