If I find happiness, what will I do? It is like that old thing I've heard of, the fear of success. If all my dreams (or at least, one) come true, what then? It is that thing we never prepare for, do we? — we never prepare for happiness. It's one of those things that we figure that we'll take as it comes; we always wing it when it comes to joy. I guess that makes sense, for glee requires little of us except that we smile and we laugh and just generally feel good. To enjoy it. But what if we're not ready for such a thing, if we don't know just how to enjoy it? I think I might be one of those kind of people. If and when happiness alights on my shoulders, I may just brush it off, unsure and wary of what it may be.
Let it be, in any case, that happiness finds me. (Note that it would have to find me, for I have forgotten where I might search out such a prize.) It is said that the face you have in your forties is the face that you have earned. That the wrinkles start to form in the places where your face has concentrated the previous years of your life. May glee wrinkle the crow's feet around my eyes, let my face bear some semblance of joy imprinted thereon. Let it not be too late to earn such an expression permanently worn into my visage. Though I don't know how I can prepare for happiness, let it happen, nonetheless — that sounds like some pleasant improvisation, kept on my toes walking on clouds.
robsmyth40
6:26pm saturday, 10th january
Hey....you are a really good writer and a tremendous thinker, but I believe that you might take things a little too serious in your personal life. I've done my share of acid, marijuana, and plenty of the other bad stuff too, and it has messed up my head, body, and life. I just try not to dwell on the negative past, and I focus on a positive vision of the future, even if it is not a very realistic one.
Great blog though....email me at robsmyth40@hotmail.com sometime.
RS
deb
4:21am sunday, 11th january
Happiness is a vision, a creation of our heart. What our heart wants it produces, the mind in all of its labrynthine twisting and turning can only follow.
nikita
4:54pm sunday, 11th january
believe me: getting used to suffering is easy; getting hooked on happiness is even easier. you'll love it!
but - mind you: reality hardly ever beats our imagination. like: "an imaginary girl" is never as "a real girl".
it's a choice: to live in reality.
and to respect it. like a gift.
x
8:45am tuesday, 13th january
Nikita is right again, use your imagination but don't live in it. Easier said than done, as a poet I know this!
robsmyth40
7:02am thursday, 15th january
I really like what all of you have to say....sometimes reality is just two trips from the looking glass.
robsmyth40