I am nothing. From dust I was made, and to dust I shall return, and all the actions I have ever performed is a tale told by an idiot, full of sound and fury, signifying nothing. I have no purpose in this world that was ever given to me except to love — all of this have this meaning — yet what do I do? When do I love? I instead follow hopeless dreams that never did me any good, forsaking sunlight and friendship. If I added all the wrongs I have ever done and the good, yes, all you would be left with is a grand total of zero. Or maybe the dollar total would be some spare change, but not even enough for bus fare to get home.... But don't listen to me. This is just one of my moods, when the idiot deigns to grace us with his speech: merely one more thing to ignore when everyone says anything.
lydia
2:51pm thursday, 4th march
Should i be an idiot to remind you that you have always lived and will always live? That you have lived a thousand of times and through Bardo where you restore your strength, wil return, if you wish, to the earth? And dust - who cares about dust, you were made of light...You mention love it is a step back towards light you came from. See you there
myra
6:59pm thursday, 4th march
stand im beginning to worry about you. you seem to have fallen into some sort of deep depression. i remember you talking about God and your faith. oyu seem to have lost that feel. try not to forget, in everything your going through, that God has made you for a reason, whether you know what it is or not, doesnt matter. its the fact that you know He did and you trust him with your life. He made you to love him and others and lastly yourself. you are always to love. so therein lies the answer to that question. i dont know you or what you are going through but i do care. and yes your body will one day turn back to dust but you and your spirit shall live on in heaven if the right choices ramain being made. Live by the word, live well, and live fully. God Bless.
Rich
8:33pm thursday, 4th march
I am assuming that this is simply deep thinking and not a depressing cry for help. Everybody needs to go through times of desperation and solitude or else there would be no appreciation for the good times, the lazy times, the warm times. We have to accept the yang with the yin and know that in time if we live on pleasant intuition that things will get better. I totally support finding God to pull you out of bad times, and thinking that you have the strength alone is foolish but to fully appreciate the muse there must be solitude. You gotta walk alone for a little and question what you really are to appreciate a glorified dirt clod.
Stand
4:25am friday, 5th march
Don't be worrying too much about me. I'm a survivor. I was just in a mood yesterday, like I say at the end there.
Rich
6:42am friday, 5th march
Why do people worry about someones depression and not their happiness? Fear perhaps that if they say nothing or try nothing blood may splatter still on their hands? I personally find when I'm in times like that is not when I need tenderness and advice but moreso tough love. Someone to say youre fine, life is good, be miserable or get happy its up to you, but sometimes even then you go out of your way to choose misery because people love to be miserable, and just need time.
lydia
myra
Rich