Pain. There are a lot of things you can say about it. I think there are times that it is the thing that moves me most efficiently, an economy of motivation to move perhaps toward or away from something. I remember being so afraid of it in my youth, that death was preferable to torture. I did not understand how one could put up with any significant amount of it. Of course, that was before I had felt it to any real degree, only some bruises and a broken heart that I could reference as any suffering at all — perhaps it was partly the unknown I feared. After I paid some dues, I understood it a little more. I'm still not a big fan of it, but I see how pain has helped me through my experience, how being toppled from my self positioned pedestal and being dragged through the briars has made me more... human. Less calculating, more empathic. I don't know if you have found such purpose for it, but pain: this was a teacher of mine, too.
myraj
6:30pm tuesday, 27th april
pian, i believe, is known to be one of Satan's worst curses and one of God's greatest blessings. it can hurt so so much and leave so many scarrs yet, like you said, it is a wonderful teacher. most of the time you wont learn not to do any thing unless the wrong is associated with pain. pain causes a greater understanding and a humblness toward those who are in the midst of experiencing the same thing that you once did.
myraj